so i just saw the Hyundai feliz navidad commercial.


it totally makes me cry.





Habari za jioni!


i am in full africa mode lately, and after the bruising of parent teacher conferences (or as i like to call social rugby) im having to re-evaluate alot of my scope and sequence for the year. you really get a glimpse into the genetic lives of students when you sit polar their parents. in most cases it was encouraging to know that the blank stares and attitude are not just projected in my classroom confines..for others though, it broke my heart to see the “disappointment” factor they must live up to daily. if your son is 10, let him be 10. do not force him to be 35 with a steady job, perfect credit and three diplomas on the wall. it was also a testament to the fact that lovefull marriages /home unions are the building block of successful learners. we try to pound that into the concrete acceptance skulls of some of our most competitive students, but i know that their “failures” will be met sorely at home.

i’d also like to remind you that if your student is doing 11th grade chemistry, 10th grade math, 9th grade language and is in the 5th grade…you have no right to ask their teacher “well how does he compare to other 5th graders in the area?” a) it makes you insensitive b) you come off a a bitch c) you are totally doubting the method and d) thanks for not only shrinking the validity of your kid’s schooling but too crushing my spirit as a teacher.



after tomorrow I will be in full christmas mode. watch out elves.


after tomorrow also marks the Black Month. so im sure you will read plenty of cryptic, cynical and all together sadening posts. you have been warned.


well its been a month.  and what a month its been…


finally settling into the house and into the classroom in a way i suppose. alot of excitement and drama. but for the most part just movement.


month of accidents.annoyances.


my baby sister moves to San Diego in 3 days. and thats hard. it was great to spend time with her . and even though ill see her in a month for crapsgiving, its really hard to swallow that she cant drop by, i cant drive a few hours to see and that 2 mountain ranges separate us. i know this move is good for her and ours is long coming, but the jealously of coastal living stings.  shes a grown girl, she can fend for herself. but as an older sister its my silent duty to worry and meddle..


ive been thinking alot about my career a lot lately. i think the next endeavor will be finishing the montessori training and potentially starting my own school..i know. crazy.


i was in a very scary but luckily only semi threatening car accident yesterday. while driving the cursed GTI, the front tire flew OFF the car while going 60mph on the bounced across the freeway onto oncoming traffic and hit a ladies SUV. it damaged her front end and i got off to the shoulder safely. none the less it was terrifying. and having a 2 yr old in the car while it happened was even worse. we literally couldve died. or killed someone else. which is just awful. not sure how long it will take to mentally recover from this. i still randomly break into tears. just the thought of makena being injured or worse in the car is gut wrenching. it was apparently no ones fault, but there will always be guilt and fear.


its mid october. which means i have about a month until the heartache begins all again. it is terrible to have a holiday ruined by pain. and november is never easy for us. i just want it to pass quickly.


to end positively…we took Ken apple picking for the 1st time today. she had a blast, beside the gale winds. she climbed a tree and lugged that basket with the best of them!


rippled stems and Rothko apples


long time, no post…


well we have officially moved in, officially have interweb status and school is officially underway! Potty training is officially becoming the bane of my existence, i officially hate strawberry shortcake movies and i am officially going to cook my 1st artichoke tonight.. i feel like i need a badge for all this business.


Kenie’s first few weeks of school have gone…..well….they’ve gone. starting on a friday is never good, having a day off the second day of school is recipe for poor structure at home, getting sick the 3rd day of school never helps, and a bladder infection the 5th day of school to boot! then another sick day and finally a “full” week.. Other than being on the brink of expulsion, potty issues have become, well, an issue. i think we are finally on the down slide of the have 5 accidents in our pants a day and make the teachers at school insane with urine. This weekend has been full of good ol structured pee pee time. and its been going well. even to the point that i forgot to put a pull up on her last night, and at some point she peed and didnt cry or get out of bed. now if we could just convince her to nap for 45 min at school like everyone else, our evenings wouldnt be so…tumultuous. school is a big long ordeal for a 2 yr old. and by 4pm she is totally wiped out. that 30 min nap in the car home just does her NO justice and by the time we get home, get fed, get bathed and get calmed down..well in actuality she’s still a hot mess. but its a work in progress…


things are calming down for me as teacher as well. getting excited to gear up the year, teaching chemistry (yikes.) hopefully anatomy, my daily music lessons and in the next month undergoing a Craft for Hope program at school. If you havent heard of Craft Hope, its a blog started by a woman that wanted to use her powers of crafting for world good. I bought her project book and was in tears thinking of how my inspirations can build a classroom of believers and pass on the gift of learning. Needless to say theres some kinks to be worked out, charities and projects to be designed, but Craft for Hope is my school year pet project….in addition to the 3000 other things that occupy my day and my mind… which drives adam nuts!


lots of changes on the horizon of this year..and i think im finally at a place to face them all. still looking into schools and trying to make an educated decision about all that mess.


Minneapolis was killer last weekend. Halloween Alaska is one of the greatest collections of noise makers on the planet. and the gift to be in a room overlooking their genius was much needed and welcomed.


I’d really like to get back to making things and posting my work here and on etsy..but all things come with time. and right now i cant neglect that crisp autumn gas brushing my fingertips. ive already purchased pomegranates, cider and artichokes. bring on fall!



If you’d like to track our Craft for Hope work, keep contacts here and *hopefully* we will be able to set up a site for my students’ progress!

gardens of hope


finally some good news about school! (ie MY personal schooling)


Yes, i have to do MORE schooling to finish up this montessori certification stuff..but i finally found a program with some real credentials that will feasibly work for me and my family AND satisfy the “get a certification” rule.


now to come up with $7200 by february….



on a less lighter note…the ghosts of this apartment are making it impossible to finish packing our shit up. IMPOSSIBLE.

though i sincerely thank the Bauers for taking makena’lei for a few days so we can have some uninterrupted packing/moving time…now if only Bernie would cooperate..just wait he might end up on your front porch tonight..



i have a recent obsession with reading blogs. i never thought it would happen but there are some seriously creative and talented people out there (many of whom live in UT, is it trend or something pulling me there even more) so check the blogroll as i add more and more of my comrades.


supressing the need to make something has been hard in this bomb of an apartment. cant wait to have space to create again and get some stuff up online for YOU all to buy?? or just drool over.